Friday 6 January 2012

I'm Back! (I think)

Hello my loves!

So my friend Shinke, the Shiney one, has been sitting on my balls for the past few weeks; "why have you abandoned your blog?" she says, "why aren't you writing?" she says. So here I am, pleasing you, oh Shiney one, with a blog post.

Except, I had no clue what to write about. I pondered and thought about it and...nothing. It's not as if they aren't an abundance of topics out there for me to speak on. I mean, the New Year just rolled on by; Happy 2012 by the way, and Christmas before that, and elections here in Jamaica, but none of these topics really interest me. Not enough to blog about anyway.

The truth is I've been feeling like a little emo bitch of late. I'm so unhappy it's pathetic. I might as well dress myself in black dreary clothes and over use my eyeliner and listen to sad, depressing music from my iPod all day long with a sign that says "Fuck Everything" on my forehead.

Its a particularly nasty cycle. I'm self loathing for self pitying and self pitying for self loathing and starting all over again and its pathetic.

You'd think in my current state, all the boys would pack their bags and run far far away, wouldn't you? I certainly thought so. Apparently I was so wrong. There is obviously some attraction that I will never understand for the girl with the fucked up emotions. I swear, these kids must have a hero complex or something, because I've never been asked out so much in life. I cannot for the life of me make sense of it.

I really don't think these kids understand what they are potentially getting themselves into. And I'm not even trying to push them away. I mean come on, I am literally at my lowest, what else can you do to turn a guy off at this point?

I think they think they can fix me somehow. Poor bastards. I'm way past the point of no return.

Pink Duchess
xoxo